Meaning of Life-ish
And, Just Like That, She’s Off
I guess I expected it would be easier this time. After all, it was my second child going to college, right? I had already explored the push and pull of wanting them to start their lives, but also longing for them to stay close that is the hallmark of parenting. Surely I’d be fine at…
Read MoreLifting My Blue Funk Fog
Whether other people know it or not, I’ve been a fog for far too long. I’ve been upset about probably the same stuff you have been upset with…the world, the hate, people in my life who hurt me. I’ve internalized it. Why? Maybe to be more likable? Maybe to seem together? Who knows. But, no…
Read MoreScattered Thoughts on My First Pandemic
Hey there, I’m new to pandemics, and let me just say, I’m not a fan. Right? I’ll be honest with you, I spent the last 3+ years doing some intentional social distancing for a lot of reasons. I’m not saying that this pandemic is my fault, but I did very vocally declare 2020 to be…
Read MoreGen Xers, Unite! Or Don’t. Whatever.
You’ve got to hand it to Gen Xers. We have been so ambivalent about everything we have finally been totally forgotten. I saw some nonsense poll on the news about generations and they had Baby Boomers, Millennials, and Gen Z. I was like, “Well, holy crap, they’ve just stopped acknowledging we exist.” This should surprise…
Read MoreMy (Not At All Far-Fetched) Turning 50 Plan
I have decided tonight that my plan for turning 50 in seven months is simple. I’m going to get incredibly fit. (I’m not.) I’m picking now because all those other years when I was younger were too easy. (I was lazy then too.) I like a challenge. (I promise you, I don’t.) And I think,…
Read MoreManifest Dresstiny
Do you remember when I posted this photo on Facebook? When I had seen this semi-silly dress advertised on Insta in the wee hours of the morning and delirious thought that I could buy it, look like that in it, and somehow manifest myself to Greece? Well, guess what motherfuckahs….????….. I booked a trip to…
Read MoreThe Audacity of Forgiveness
If you’re struggling to understand how this man could forgive and hug his brother’s murderer, you are not alone. Forgiveness, true forgiveness, eludes most of us. Despite it being the cornerstone of many of our religions, still the act of forgiveness bewilders. Years ago, I struggled deeply with this very issue. I was mired in…
Read More9/11: America 18 Years Later
It seems impossible that 9/11 was 18 years ago. I readily know the amount of years because my daughter celebrated her first birthday a couple weeks after. I remember at her party how we were all so shocked and afraid for the future, while simultaneously trying to be positive about the life ahead of this…
Read MoreThe Joy of Summertime Mushy-Brained Kids
I saw an ad for some kind of tutoring for kids, I’m guessing. It said something like, “Kids lose 30% of their school learning during the summer.” I’m pretty sure they were hoping that I’d be frightened, concerned, worried. But my instant reaction was not only to think, “Good,” but to say it out loud…
Read MoreChristine Blasey Ford, I Am With You
I’m having trouble working or concentrating today. As I sit in my house, far from the reality of what Christine Blasey Ford is experiencing at the cold hands of our government, I somehow feel like I’m experiencing it with her. When she speaks my body reacts with a nervousness of stress that is unreasonable given…
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